sad love stories

kay before i start on this post, i wanna say dat i'm a bookworm and i could spend all day, n i literally mean all day reading novels..with the option of eating and going to the toilet being secondary.. but till now i dun really own many love novels nor do i really show any interest in it at all..

the first love novel i own was Memoirs of a Geisha. the bitterness of being a geisha in their everyday life was a wonderful insight to the fact that geishas are not allowed to have feelings.. at least not to one particular man.. but in the Sayuri, the herione in the story, did end up with the man she loved, after much hardship and heartache.

my favourite love novel was Pride and Prejudice. it was by far the best, the most clever, and had the most charisma written in a story of love, rejection and hate. i felt it was downright funny and intriguing how the two lead characters fought, argued; for her sister and his best friend, and finally ended up falling so much in love that it's ridiculous! i mean anyone could have guessed the end.. but if you were reading and even if you were the most ironic person who has ever lived, you would still want Elizabeth and Mr. Darcy to end up together at the end. it seems like the story, just like Romeo and Juliet, was also a fantasy to all.. that all of us, deep in our hearts, actually wanted to find a Mr. Darcy, the man who despite his ego, falsity, charisma for the higher rank, to sum it up, the arrogant, piece of shit knight on a silver white horse, would be willing to stoop and knell, just as how he did to Elizabeth, in front of you and devote his entire life to you, with his heart on his palm for you.

another love novel i read was A Walk to Remember. as usual, it was funny, painful, and almost boring then suddenly she died! i was like What The Fuck for one hour! ok.. before i go on.. i have to say, it was before korean love dramas became popularised on the whole, one-lead-character-must-die-then-only-end concept/impact. it came out wen i was 15 years and i was only 13 or 14 when i read the book so it was a big surprise. but yea.. i guess she dies, and that left a hole in his heart.. bla bla bla.. the end.. but the way the writer wrote it, it was like i could feel how he felt, the loss he felt, how the hole in his heart would never ever heal even when he's 55 years old. aiya.. till the day he die la.. ish.. but there was alot of christianity in it, so i think it kinda made me lose interest and bored me.. till the death part.. haha.. then i was plenty awake to cont reading..

finally i read.... argh i cant believe i'm gonna say it... the vampire saga,...... argh!! Twilight la!! ok.. sorry for sounding like dat, just dat anyone who knew me well would probably screw their eyebrows in disbelieve if they knew i was reading this lovey-dovey vampire story.. haha! i have to say, the book was really not as bad as it looked.. it was a mix of reality with a taste of legendary creatures such as werewolves and vampires.. even so.. the story is only centered on the love between Bella and Edward, there was hardly any action in it, cept for the last 200 pages (300 pages before is love stuff that made me frustrated and read faster so to get to the action or important parts). but i have to say... like seriously.... the first book, Twilight sucks to the max!.. the writing style sucks, the way she wrote the conversations between Bella and Edward made Edward looked and sounded like the most depressing vampire, who suffered from a case of change-expression-from-severely-depressed-to-severely-angry-to-severely-depressed-to-severely-happy and the circle goes on and on in one single paragraph made of 5 lines of conversation with Bella.. this Bella pulak le.. suffered from liking to play the, I-have-to-look-at-the-multiple-and-colourful-expression-carefully-and-in-detail-to-see-what-ticks-the-vampire-off game syndrom. seriously, if she was the ever so calm and whatever character she was supposed to be, she wouldn't act the way she acted around Edward. it should be like she was just chilling, hanigng out with her boyfriend even if he was a vampire. but...! but.... the rest of the other books such as New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn were ok.. getting better in fact... just the first book sucks and story line boring...

hmmm.. all and all.. British books are better.. not meaning the stories, just the style of writing..

but what i like about these books are that, all love stories has a side effect or a down side, where one of the characters will get hurt and get nothing in the end.. even if they played an important role in the story, they are still casted to the side.. it makes the story kinda real in its own context.. just like Paris in Romeo and Juliet..

for instance, in Memoirs of a Geisha, Nobu was casted aside by Sayuri, even though, if it werent for him, she would be dead in the war, she would go hungry, she would just be a nobody. it was his affections and love for her, that held her through her bitter days, the person who brought her back to life and it was also him that she chosed to hurt by commiting adultry with another random man in order to break his heart.

then, in Pride and Prejudice, it was cause of the misunderstandings of Mr. Darcy that drove away Elizabeth. see.. jane, Elizabeth's sister loves Darcy's best friend, and he loves her too.. but cause Jane's family like not suitable, then he convinced him to let go.. and he let go he did.. so she was pissed, he was pissed, all pissed and misunderstood.. wat i'm trying to say is dat, Darcy's character was the strong type, he was rich, powerful, and all that, but he was willing to do all he could so dat Elizabeth would forgive him. not only did she forgave him, she was totally wrong about him, and soon she saw him differently.. the side effect, was the insecure feeling that occur when you realised you actually love the person and now you dun know how to face him after all that happened, and you dun know how to apologise and walk away.. because you realise you love him too much to just walk away..

then in the vampire saga, i could actually feel what Jacob felt when Bella rejected him. i mean he was there for her and all that shit, then when her vampire came back, she cabut.. haha! well, it ended up quite ok in the end with his being 'imprinted' to a new born baby.. swt.. it sounds weirder than i tot it would be.. haha.. but before what weird thing i said, i could feel the betrayal, the pain he must have felt to be rejected again and again eventhough the girl clearly used him and actually is in love with him.. haha.. obviously a children's book.. and can be quite misleading eh.. cause for one: there would never be a 'guy' like Edward, only guys like jacob who makes you laugh, protects you, warms you up on cold days and tries to be the best man he could to complete your life (ok.. maybe guys like him are rare as well, but we all know he's out there) so it's kinda.. ok.. really hurting when i read that this 'kind of' guy was in constant pain and despair, inflicted by one such as Bella.. he deserves so much better from her, yet this was all he got.. despair and pain right in the middle of where it hurts the most..