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found a song that describes exactly how i felt, feel and will b feeling for the next 20 days or more..

before i start, i just wanna say something.. i really rather be the dumpee than the dumper.. it hurts alot less wen ur nt trying to break someone else's heart.... i know its a weird statement bt i'm already weird in the beginning so.. yea.... it's so much easier to get ur heart broken than to break another... though the tears are the same, it's easier to let go.. especially wen u have done nothing and all u can to keep the relationship alive.. its easier to let go wen its nt ur fault..

without words by 9th street

i shouldn't have done that
i should have pretended i din know
as if you were invisible
as if i couldn't see
i guess i shouldn't have ever looked at you
i should have run away
i should have pretended i couldn't hear
pretend i couldn't even hear
as if i was deaf
i should have never listened to your love

*chorus*
without words you made me know love
without words you gave me love
because you let me even hold your breathe and then ran away
without words love left me
without words love threw me away
what should i say?
i think my closed lips were startled on their own
because it came without words

why does it hurt like this?
why does it keep hurting?
except for the fact that i can't see you and you're not here
everything is the same as before

*repeat chorus*
without words my tears flow
without words my heart is collapsing
without words i wait for love
without words i ache for love
i'm lost in confusion
i became a fool
because i only look at the sky and cry
without words separation finds me
without words separation came to me
i cant be ready
having send you off
i think my heart is startled
because it came without words

without words it came
without words it's leaving
like a passing fever
i think it might hurt only a while
because it only left a small scar