men!!!!????

owh fuck this!!!!
i am irrational?? emotional????
but above all IRRATIONAL???
nt every fucking thing i do or feel is irrational!!!!
if it is really irrational then wat the fuck do u wan??
me to nt have feelings n b a fucking robot?????
i feel something i hav no control of n i'm wrong to feel dat way???
i am fucking irrational to feel dat way????
i am FUCKING PUNISHING US?????
DO U FUCKING THINK I WANNA FEEL LIKE THIS??
DO U THINK I FUCKING WANNA THINK OF U FUCKING 2 OTHER GIRLS WHEN I MISS YOU???
BT NOOOO.... I AM PUNISHING US!!!!
WAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN???
I TELL U HOW I FEEL COZ I HOPE FOR SOME CLOSURE
MAYBE SOME EMPATHY AND UNDERSTANDING
AND YES IT DOES FUCKING BOTHER ME TO FEEL LIKE THIS
HAVING IMAGES LIKE THIS POPPING IN MY MIND DOES BOTHER ME
THEY UPSET ME
THEY DISGUST ME
OF COZ THEY DUN DISGUST U IF ITS ME IN IT INSTEAD!!!
COZ THEY R NT FUCKING TRUE!!!!!
IT BOTHERS ME COZ I REALLY FEEEL LIKE I'M TASTING ALL THE OTHER GIRLS YOU FUCKED!!!
WAT MAKES ME SO FUCKING DIFFERENT FROM THEM TO YOU THEN??
i dunno wat feelings u had wat was going through ur mind???
then wat about my feelings?????????
y cant i have feelings tooooooo???????????????
i want to nt feel like this
i want to trust u
i want u to b there wen i need u the most
bt u say I'M PUNISHING US FOR FEELING DAT WAY???
FUCK YOU!
N YET U DUN UNDERSTAND SHIT N U FUCKING DARE SAY IM FUCKING IRRATIONAL???
DO U EVEN THINK FOR A SECOND I WAN TO HAVE FLASHES OF U FUCKING 2 GIRLS AT THE SAME TIME?????????
NO I'M PUNISHING US!!!!!
I AM FUCKING PUNISHING US???!!!!!
YEA SURE UR AFRAID I'LL CRASH AND BURN
IF U CAN EVEN THINK I CAN CRASH AND BURN, THEN Y CANT U SEE???
Y CANT U FUCKING UNDERSTAND WAT I'M GOING THROUGH????
NOOOOOOOO
I . AM . PUNISHING . US !!!!